Today the bitter cold weather reflects my mood perfectly
and I thank mother nature for being so accommodating.
It is something, not much,
but something to be happy about.
I've spent the last week constantly on the verge of tears but they never fall.
They stay,
keeping the pressure high in my head,
creating a constant head ache
and heavy weight I feel on my chest
with every breath I take.
Monday, May 16, 2011
practice
Everything I read about writing tells me in order to be good at it I need to do it everyday. I'm finding that particularly difficult, because I don't always have something to say. I understand the concept, practice makes perfect, but lately I can only write anything worth reading when I am feeling particularly ripe with emotion.
I don't hate Hollywood for my distorted body image. I don't hate Hollywood for making me think that at 118 I'd still look a lot better if I lost five pounds. I think beauty should be something worth striving towards constantly. It should be hard to obtain and always slightly out of reach. I think if all the models and actresses looked just like me they would have no right to be famous and wealthy, and partly that's true either way.
But what I really hate Hollywood for is making me feel unsuccessful. I'm 24 and I have a college degree and I am not horribly discontent with my life, but Hollywood makes me feel a lot more like a failure. In shows like Ally Mcbeal people my age drive brand new Saabs and make six figures. In movies people always get married when they're my age and have a house and kid two years later, all the while maintaining their lovely careers that they got right out of college. I know a house and kid aren't in my near future and I'm ok with that. Why do shows and movies have to make me feel bad about?
I don't hate Hollywood for my distorted body image. I don't hate Hollywood for making me think that at 118 I'd still look a lot better if I lost five pounds. I think beauty should be something worth striving towards constantly. It should be hard to obtain and always slightly out of reach. I think if all the models and actresses looked just like me they would have no right to be famous and wealthy, and partly that's true either way.
But what I really hate Hollywood for is making me feel unsuccessful. I'm 24 and I have a college degree and I am not horribly discontent with my life, but Hollywood makes me feel a lot more like a failure. In shows like Ally Mcbeal people my age drive brand new Saabs and make six figures. In movies people always get married when they're my age and have a house and kid two years later, all the while maintaining their lovely careers that they got right out of college. I know a house and kid aren't in my near future and I'm ok with that. Why do shows and movies have to make me feel bad about?
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